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They say talking about how you feel makes you feel better. I sure hope that works..

Drugs have impacted my life so much. At least once in your life you probably have written about drugs, addiction, and all that jazz. When I was little, and that DARE officer came in and talked to you about the sick affects, and showed me the picture of the dirty black human lungs, of the poor teenager that did meth.. I always figured, I won't know anyone like that. I will only be friends with people that were "good". Well as I grew up, my friends would start experimenting... Long story short. I can not tell you one friend back in Missouri that isn't cracked out every night. The truth is I love them. The truth is I am scared for them. The truth is, I know I have forced my self to drift away, just so I won't get hurt. The truth is I have been to 5 of my friends funerals, involving in drugs. It hurt. you can't live in the past, so I moved on. The present is here, and my best friend has gotten "re-hooked"...It tears me up, so much.

Dear Best friend, 

We have known each other for 18 years. We would talk about how dumb drugs were. Then you tried it, you got addicted. You gave up family, and friends, just so you could shoot up. You lied so you could smoke. You stole so you can snort. You have betrayed me time and time again. It hurts. You have gone to Rehab numerous times, I pray you beat the addiction. I pray so much for that. Somehow, you never learn.. You always run back to what you think is your true love. I pray you will be happy like you once were, I pray you seek something other then what hurts you most. I hope one day you can be normal. I wish you were happy without dealing. I wish you could be their for me when I needed you. It is so hard to call you in tears and you answer the phone so drunk, every night. It is so hard when  I get voicemails, of you babbling on and on because the meth is turning you crazy. It is so hard hearing your friends call me and tell me how bad off you are. It is so hard to have a best friend, that cares more about where the next dealer is, then our friendship. I love you. I want the best for you. Hopefully one day you will realize, you can live life, with out relying on drugs. I pray you figure it all out before it is too late.

Your cousin/ best friend,

Ashley. xox.

I found this poem a while back that ripped my heart. enjoy.

 Have you ever been tempted?
Have you ever wanted to try?
The things I will say
May cause you to cry.

The things that can happen
If you ever take a drug,
You’ll always be tired
You’ll be slow as a slug.

There are so many illnesses 
sure to be caught,
Your lungs, 
Your heart and
Your brain Will rot.

If you ever take drugs
You will never turn back,
Health,
Wealth and 
Looks you surly will lack.

You will be trapped forever
under the spell,
Of Cocaine, Marijuana 
And others to tell.

Take a single drug
you’ll only want more,
Temptations, temptations
Coming straight through the door.


If you avoid taking drugs
Fame and riches you could get,
But if your not convinced
not a single need would be met.

They’ll run you out of town
They wont want you back,
The only place you can live
Is a small, rundown shack.

If you are still taking drugs
I know you’re a fool,
Back then they were popular
Now there not cool.

Experiment,
Interest,
Or any other reason
You consuming drugs
Is worse than even treason.

But If still your not convinced
I don’t know what else to say,
Just that drugs can conquer
The life you live today.