Some days I wish I could be 3 again. I wish I could walk around with a smile all the time. I wish I didn't have to worry about things. I wish I could only worry about, the simple things in life. I wish I was happy 24/7 like I used to be. Those 3 year olds don't know how well they have it. There seems to be a dark stormy cloud above my head these last couple days, and I wish I could say that the cloud will pass by tomorrow. Who knows. Every hour seems like a new delima comes up. I'm sick of being blamed. I'm sick of ignorant people. They say if you fake smile when you have a bad day, then the fake smile will turn real? Heck with that. That did not work out. At all. I wish I could of smiled today and meant it. But it didn't work. Today has been terribly hard for me. Just the fact of knowing what today is. Everything has changed with in the last year. I have lost so many people. The people I used to be the closest too have vanished. Some of my closest friends, have made stupid decisions, causing us to go seperate ways. It simply breaks my heart. I know that trials make me stronger, I have seen myself become so much stronger by enduring trials that face me but when does it stop? I guess I am not as strong as I thought and wanted to me. I have to keep reminding myself that every thing happens for a reason... As of today I was a walking emotional wreck. My friends don't know, because I don't share things. I keep it in. I fake the smile. And pray it will be real. I am so glad I only have just like 2 followers, because only 2 people can read my craziness. Any way, here are some cutie patootie pictures of me..:)
I miss being so super close to my cousin Lisa. I miss that a lot.
I miss the way my brother just adored me, and thought I was the coolest.
I miss believing in things..
I miss dancing 5 days a week..
I never realized how much I took for granted.
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