Embrace

Today was another good day. 

I pray I am not cursing myself.

I love having happy days.

However, I ran around with my head cut off.

I averaged 3 hours of sleep. ( I can't sleep anymore), went shopping, hung out with some old friends, went to Lagoon with my momma, late night wal-mart stop with great friends, then off to persuading people to vote for me on this contest (If you are reading this and have not voted, please contact me!!!) I feel like such a pest. I have been contacting literately everyone on fb just so i can win a vacation to San Diego! 

I wish I could sing and dance. Even though I know this will never come true. I still admire people who can so much. Going on stage, giving it your all, in front of a judging crowd. I go to Lagoon, and watch the shows there. They are great. I mean sure they arn't Carrie Underwood, or Michael Jackson, but they are good. I admire them a lot. Watching them have a great time, singing and dancing up there inspires me.

Talk about an offer? Today I was offered a job. When I was offered it, I turned around and couldn't help but ball. It wasn't the "ugly cry" Oprah would say...but it was a happy cry. I was offered to be a Weight loss Coach. It was such a complete shock, I couldn't even respond I just stared. This man knew my weight loss journy and everything. He said I was one of the most hardworking, ambitious, enthusiastic girls he has ever met. And that he has seen that I have a special kind of love for people. He said whenever I wanted the job I could easily get it, just let him know.

He also offered me this other job. Again as I was standing there hearing about another job, I could barely breath do to the fact, I was trying my life not to cry infront of this man...looking like such a freak lol. He said if I rejected the Coach job, then he would love to take me with him and 3 other adults. ( They are like 40) With him to different conventions, and schools, being a motivational speaker. Talking about loosing weight, gaining confidence, ect. As much as I dreamed about being a motivational speaker when I was in 2nd grade, I'm not sure how I could handle doing this.. This is all too new for me to think about esp so late.. I mean $350 a speech is amazing. But am I ready for this? How can someone with no experience just get up and do this? Ohh my life is changing.. And I'm trying my hardest to swallow it all..

Sadly, I will be rejecting it as of now I think. Summer has another month and a half, and then college. Maybe next summer. Maybe next. I have never really thought about anything like that before. I still feel shocked and proud. I have never been proud of my self. When I accomplished my "loosing weight goal" I was proud. I now look in the mirror and feel good. If I was to tell myself a year ago, that someone was going to offer me a big buck making job like this, I would be shocked. If I would have known that I would be where I am today I would more shocked.

It's crazy how everything works out. Its crazy how things fall into place. Its crazy how God knows what is going on. Its crazy how, going through "hell" is the best thing for you. It's crazy how hitting rock bottom, can flip your life around.

On an easier note..

The Bachelorette is on tonight! Man I love that show.