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extra small?

extra small?

There is no stinken way. So I am beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel, with  this whole "loosing weight" journey. I ordered extra small pants, about 2 weeks ago. I have been dying to get my new summer stylish outfits. THEY FIT. I AM SO PROUD, YOU GOT NO IDEA. The thing about loosing weight and shopping is this..IT IS SO HARD. 1st off, You flectuate sizes every day. Which is good. It's crazy for instance. I buy an amazing pair of pants. I wear them what 3 times? Then 2 weeks later, they are hideously big. They sag like no other and are way to big. Plus your wanting people to see how skinny you are, so wearing your "fat clothes" just makes you look fat. See the point?

So every 2 weeks you have to buy more and more. Which has taken all my money these last 5 months-ish. So now i have buckets and buckets of "fat clothes" its crazy.  So for the month of June, I decided, since it is summer, I will just have a couple of outfits, until I get to a size that I want, then I will buy tons of fashionable clothes! holla! Good plan huh. Back to the basics. Soo.. I ordered these cute leggings in an extra small. And a grey tunic!! Okay. No bragging,  but I felt good. I felt really good.  Me an extra-small? There is no way. I mean yes my butt is rather ghetto. My thighs are chunky monkeys. My hips, are rather big for my waist. My tah-tahs are big, and my collar bones are poking out... But nope, those insecurities did not get to me. 

I used to be so fearful of compliments, so fearful. Well Saturday night was Jaxons' birthday. It was really a while ago but,  it still counts right? Okay so it always seems like my favorite nights are the nights that I don't have anything planned. The nights where you feel like you are totally yourself, and your thrilled to death. Thrilled. Sooooooooooo. It was just Jaxon, Ryan, Steve, and Casey. and of coarse me. (Well.. when I blog I feel like I talk about the stupidest stuff, I never know why I mention things, like their names, what the good heck????ahhhh) So I asked Jaxon what we should do for his birthday and this is the list we got. 1. hike 2. slc. 3. random drive 4.eat popcorn in the mountains 5. I can't remember #5 for the life of me.. Anyway we did all this.  Hike's are deff not my fave thing to do in the world, and i despise popcorn more then anything.. So I was going to me Timmy the trouper. Any way Jaxon told me how pretty I looked, and how I had a glow about me. 

HA. Your probably thinking I'm just weird just about now.. but wait.. listen up. I was like "ohh thanks Jaxon.." But here we go.. Get it? I just accepted the compliment. It has been one of the 1st times I just accepted it. Usually I just say "oh stop it haha" or something along that matter. That was a gigantic step for me. I'm so happy. I am so happy with who I am. Who I am working to become. Happy Day To everyone:)