GETCHAHalloween on.

Now tell me this ain't the cutest most precious picture.

I just adore my little bunny face puppy.

So big news. This is basically my first Halloween since I was like a little kid. Last year I worked during Halloween. The years before, I was sick. All last week I was so sick! thank goodness. It finally "some-what" went away, on Wednesday. So what did I do, you ask? I immediately, made Halloween plans all week. 

Wednesday I went on a date to a scary-freakin corn maze. I may or may not   peed my panties.I screamed every time. thank goodness this boy was totally chill. On Friday I went to Fright mares with my momma, then went to a Halloween party, and dressed up as a baseball player...haha whata joke. On Saturday I went up to Provo and went to a fun little dance party, where I met this totally attractive boy, ( GREAT STORY: the kid added me on fb, but me being stupid ACCIDENTALLY ignored the request, and I don't know his last name...so yeahh I'm screwed, story of my life.) Then I went to the HOWEL. Tonight I watched a stinken scary movie with some friends, then fell asleep, and now I'm suffering from a broken neck. Oh and tomorrow I am carvng pumpkins:) I am loving my Haloween. Ohh yeah, I have eaten every pumpkin thing in the world. I have taken advantage of this last week, splurging the heck out of it. As much as I loved partying untill 6am every morning, appylying gobs of glitter on each eye, stuffing my self with candy/pumpkin/hot chocolate,peeing my pants every 3 seconds,and going through corn mazes. I think I have had my quoto:) Goodbye Haloween, I love you. See you next yea.

Hope YOU had a awesome Halloween. 

:)

fugly?

Baby Cakes what???

I heard that saying today. I chuckled like a freak for about 10 minutes, after hearing it. And the woman was wondering why I didn't try to cover up my laugh. But I tried! I tried really hard, then that grunt weird sound came out? you know that weird sound when you hold in your laugh. Okay. Yeah. 

Dear woman, I enjoyed you "Baby Cakes what?" Saying.

My blog has been so messed up. It hasn't let me log on for evEEEr. Because why? I "supposedly " didn't know my password. "Baby Cakes what???" I know my password blogger. Geta freaken life.

Whats new you may wonder. Welp. I am sicker then a dog. (Btw, who the heck made that saying up)I have the worst sinus infection/head cold ever. No exaggeration. So basically I sniffle, blow my noes, and sleep all day. It's the life. On the plus side I forced my self to go out and go shopping today. I bought some dang cute clothes if I have to brag. 

Since, I love to ramble and I really don't feel like organizing my paragraphs with different topics I will just combine. Bare with me.

I am considering being a rockstar punk diva....whatever for Halloween. Who knows how that will work out. I just want extremely long eye lashes.  And tons of colorful extensions. Yeah I am cool. I'm planning on going to the BYU Halloween  party and the Howel at Utah State.  Yeah. So basically, I will be traveling all over Utah, sick. I am kinda excited. Maybe just to see my friends? Maybe just to tease my hair like no other.bah.

On another note, guess who has gotton A's on all their math tests? Yeah me. goooo me. Aaaand guess who is going to Vegas with my  mommy and Julie. Yeah me. This week has treated me so good. I am so happy. Even though I am coughing to death.

Well.......

there is my life in a nutshell.

Ps. I need to find black flats, and they are all fugly. Yes, I said fugly.

Finally.

I'm in a good place.

I really am, and I am so thankful for it.

Soo thankful. 

I left all the bad behind.

The stress, the rumors, the conflicts. I left them for someone else to deal with. I left the hurt the pain, and the awful words that were said.

And it feels perfect.

The last couple of weeks have been coming together, and it gives me much hope. It doesn't make waiting pointless anymore. I now take day by day knowing that there IS a light at the end of the tunnel.

I am happy, and that has taken a while to become.

Happy day to all:)

"You have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you got and remember what you had, always forgive, but never forget, learn from your mistakes, but never regret, people change, things go wrong, just remember…life goes on."

Updating.

I feel like whenever I sit down to blog. My mind goes from 1,235,999 topics to 0. How you ask? I don't know. My English teacher would problay say it is writers block.(Yeah, English Professor, I listened to you...)

Anything new in my life? Other then school... Well.. I supose, just a tad.

*I got a call saying my brother was in the Emergency room. Scared to death I drove to the hospital. Well.. Long story short he only had a ear infection, I guess those babies hurt?! Who would of thought a storng guy would think they were dying, all because of an ear infection.

* I hurt my eye..BAD. I was laying on the couch, and had a sheet over my face,( I do that when my face is cold haha okay? Don't judge) so my face is covered up. And my mom decided to poke my face to be funny I guess? But I don't know this mind you.. Well.. at the exact same time I lift my head up and her fingure goes right THROUGH MY EYE. Yeah you heard me. Well into the upper lid up, if that makes some gross sense. So needless to say I have a BLACK EYE, and a hundred blood vessels broken. Thank Goodness, I didn't go blind. My eye is throbbing, and looks like a total un-hott mess.

*I have lost 8lbs baby. Well... In the last 4 days! Yeah, I'm happy. Today was my cheat day, I may have splurged just a little because, my eye hurt and I needed mega comfort food. But so stinken what?

WELL, there you got some news.

"Boys? At WEber? Good luck honey, good luck."

Sooooo... college dating life. How is that going you ask? 

Lets chat about it...

Sooo, after several weeks at college I have come to a conclusion.

There are several guys at Weber.

1.Engaged Boys.

2.Boys that are about to leave on their mishion, so why date?

3.MARRIED BOYS.

4.Forign boys, that don't know English.

5. Crazy, Weird, Socially challenged Boys.

Nooo, seriously. I do not exaggerate when I talk about this. All guys at Weber fall into 5 categories above. Lets talk about only SOME (yes I mentioned some, since I have lists of awkward situations that has happened to me.) I will give a great example of why I think this for each classification;)

SITUATION #1: Well... Once upon a time I am walking to the HUB (Stupidest place on Campus mind you, man I hate it).. and some guy comes and asks if I need help finding some place, "Hm...man, I must look confused or something"<-- that was my thoughts haha. Well.. I said no... And then told him where I was going = BIG MISTAKE. So then he asks, what  I am doing Thursday night, and asked if I wanted to grab a bite to eat with him. I said possibly we exchanged numbers, and walked our separate ways. 2 days later, I saw him at the book store, "Thumbing through some books", I glanced from over the other shelf, and BOOOOOM. I SAW A RING ON THAT FINGER. Like seriously? I texted him asking if he was engaged, and he said yes but things weren't going well... Probably because he is a cheater cheater pumpkin LOSER. So that takes care of classification 1.

CLASSIFICATION #2 Now we are at the first day of school. I get paired with an attractive guy for one of these (get to know each other fun projects haha) Well... Long story short, we had 40 questions to think of learn, and memorize about each other. Then we would stand up and talk about each other mentioning those 40 questions, w/o asking your partner for hints. Well  myself, being brilliant thought "Lets do normal questions such as; Whats your favorite color? Favorite Animal? Middle name? ETC" Makes great since right? No. Not according to him!!! These were his questions. "How many baptisms for the dead do you think i will get on my mish? Where do you think I will get called? Who is my next friend returning home from their mish?" Okay no I am not even exaggerating. AT ALL. Don't get me wrong missions are important. I love returned missionaries, and I am all for that, BUT seriously? Please find the line and draw it! Soo, that takes care of Classification #2.

CLASSIFICATION:#3- This could of been the 3rd or so day of class. The setting Computer class. I am dumb with computers, All  I know how to do it blog, facebook, youtube, and that is it. SO I asked this married man to my right for help. Thinking he is married I am not into him, so sure, why not ask him a question. I won't get picked up on, and I can concentrate on this class, instead of who is checking me out. Well.. he offered to "tutor me on Computers", I kindly declined, thinking oh that was nice. Well.. Then he asks "is it because I just don't want to pay to learn about something I hate?" I responded by saying, "Well thats a part of it..." He then decided to carry it to the 12th level and say... Well, I won't charge if I worked with you, I mean what is better then stairing at a drop dead beautiful HOTTIE. The man is married mind you... oh my gosh... Never sat by that cheating freak again.

CLASSIFICATION#4: There is a looooot of non American people at Weber. Sorry for my racial slurs coming up btw. Now, I have NOTHING wrong with people from other countries. They amaze me, their style of clothing,culture and everything. But communication is major for a friendship yet alone of relationship. Well. Once upon a day, I was minding my own business when I was lightly taped on the shoulder. I turn around thinking its one of my friends that go there... I mean strangers don't really usually tap someones shoulder like that right? Well at least I thought so.. I turn around and he is an "indian arab race" <-- racial slure alert. I know. Okay so taken off guard I may have jumped a little. 50% because I didn't know him, and 50% because he was practically on me. My bubble bursted and flew to heaven, or even farther he was so close... He muttered in half english half I don't know what language something?          (FUN FACT:Well.. i have a huge talent of understanding people. Like I got the 2yr old talk mastered. the 3-10 year old children with speech problems figures out as well. I even mastered them New Yorkers accent's. The country accents. The hick accents. The ghetto talk, and the black crazy words they use. I mean it I got the "understanding people" down to  T.) So not understanding him, means he was sooo hard to understand and his english was a good 1%..Well after five minutes of me nervously laughing, and running my hands through my hair, and saying "whaaaat whaat, sorry what?" He then took out his phone and texted and it translated it I guess into English. He wrote..."you are a beautiful girly. What do you think of me?" Talk about blunt. Now I am in a dilemma, I want to be nice even though he invaded my bubble, and mind you had a weird smell about him.. All I could do was put my thumb up, feel like a loser and sprint off in a hurry... Yeah...weird. 

CLASSIFICATION #5: This is not meant to be bashing haha... Again I sat by this guy,in my math class now... We had to do another get together thing. So here I am trying to be friendly. He was the shy type I could tell. I am shy too when I don't know people. So I didn't think much of it. Well I would start asking him common questions, such as," What is your name?" Welll... after each question I would wait for a response. He would either say "Yeah about that" Or he would NOT SAY A THING, and just turn bright red. It was nuts. I am still recuperating, from trying to handle that situation...

SOO. As you can see I have had my fair share of guy issues at Weber. Honestly it gets to me. Why Weber? Why?Why? Every date I have been on since school has started either goes to UVU, U of U, or BYU? This brings me into issues. I mean, then maybe again  am weird, but oh well. Soo this is my thinking. So these poor guys I date, drives almost 2 hrs through traffic... Well, like 90 minutes I exaggerated a tad, to see me. I feel so awful the whole time. When I get home at 1 am. They drive hours home..How awful. Understand? I feel awful. Although, I am so happy they did, because I haven't had any of these weird issues with those boys.....YET... kk joking.

So there are my feelings, love them all you want haha...:)

there we go.

All this homework/ school work crap better pay off. 

After all this if I'm not a genius then.... i don't know but I what, but it ain't good.

WELP. There is my true feelings.

Mama mia, here I go again.

*Honestly I don't think I have ever felt like more of a fatty. I have eaten out every day this week, plus Guess how many times I exercised? None. Yeah None. I have to be in a SLUMP or something right? Yeah I don' know but tomorrow I'm starting up my, diet/exercise fun. Hoping that goes well, or at least decent.

*Tomorrow, I don't have school thank heavens. I look forward to my Thursdays now so much. I rearranged my classes finally so I can leave school early Friday, and not go at all Thursday. So with this big weekend this week, I'm beginning to want to leave Utah for a bit. Like leave at 12:00 on Friday and come home Monday night-ish? That sounds so amazing. Maybe a short trip to Vegas? Yeah. This I have to reality check myself. I went on vacation exactly a month ago from today. This was a shocker, I swear it has been longer. Like 4 months. That is crazy. It hasn't even been 2 weeks of school, but I am need of vacation. Not desperate need yet... just in need. From 1-10. I'm a 4-5. I'm sure my numbers will be going up day by day haha. School is draining. I have never been more exhausted in my life. I get an average of 2 hours of sleep every night. I regret being an "over-wannabe-smart-achiever" and signing up for 2 math classes, and a computer class, along with 3 other stressful classes,especially it being my first semester and all.... I feel as if my head is 1 cm above water, and I am dog paddling my butt off to stay alive. Although, I am mastering getting the hang of all this. Some how it has all worked out, and gone "semi-smoothly"...... Thanks to God watching over me FOR SURE.

*Well that has been my last couple days. Wake up. Get ready. (I never get up when I want to so my mornings always end up going like this: Rush out of bed, quickly shower, throw hair up, put un-matching clothes on, drive as fast as I can so I won't be late for 30 minutes, then walk miles to my first class.) At this point I am panting like a dog, and yawning. I'm sure I look pretty hot, non the less. I go to my fun filed classes, get even more stressed out, then walk miles back to my car, where I speed home, to start on the fun homework I have. At this point my eyes are completely shut, so I am forced to take a nap. Then I eat some fatty foods, and study,prepare for tests, or do homework all night, sleep for 2 hours, and the cycle continues. Man the life of a college girl is rough...hahaha. Mama mia.

Sleep.

Welcome to my "new" life.

Books.

Notes.

Diet. Dr Pepper.

and sadly,

my phone not attached to my hand....

Ohh College life, where do I begin? I remember people older then me going off to college, and they would tell me it is a whole different life style. I thought they just wanted to look cool. Uhm, boy was I wrong. I honestly feel like my life was flipped a thousand times around and here I am trying to conquer it. 

I have never in my life studied. I just figured, I'll get what I get. They require much more highschool credits in Missouri then they do in Utah so when I moved out here my junior year, I slacked more then ever. I went to 3 classes every other day my whole junior and senior year....BOY WAS THAT NICE. They were also super easy classes, which is much better.

  Now I attend class every day. I drive and drive and drive. Then I walk and walk and walk some more. I'm still trying to get the hang of it all, and balancing everything out. Although it has only been 4 days of this chaos, honestly I am doing quite well handling and embracing it all.

Babbling? I think yes.

Okay deep down I think I like college to the extent that I am forcing myself to go. I mean I know I have to get my 4  years in, so may as well try to enjoy it? I miss not worrying. I am constantly thinking about my school work. Nerdy much? I know.  All I do is read and read then write and look over notes, then do homework... and it never ends. Hours after hours. What I do like is the social life there. I mean I have been invited to do things, go to party's, or go on dates every single night this week. Sadly, that is where prioritizing comes in too play...

I made up my mind that yes school comes first, but that doesn't mean I can't have fun right? So Friday and Saturday=fun. School can just wait those nights. I'll probably be thinking about how much I should be studying while I'm out those nights...but at at I am out enjoying myself.

What also sucks majorly? Not having money. I go from working and getting paid quite well... To giving up my jobs....(seriously loved them) not getting any money... then buying my books, and all that other fun stuff. I don't even speak of shopping. I was asked to go shopping with some friends, and I had to say noo.....Sad day. Never rejected a shopping trip with my girls to Park City in my life. I guess thats all about growing up....Prioritizing and making decisions, welp. I don't like it. Ed of the story.

Thursdays I just have 1 class. Computer something or other. I HATE IT.I HATE IT. Soo much. So today is my"ease day" Hints to my blogging. I don't get homework in there it is all tests over the computer and what not, which I hate. I'm trying to drop that class but who knows. My friend's mom was sick (In Alabama.....don't know why I even mentioned that, probaley my lack of sleeep..) So she was in desperate need of a baby-sitter. Well... here is the ting she needed someone from 3:30 am, when she and her husband drove until 10:15. Well, me being the poor person I am, figured I'll do it. Then I will go to my one class. Then I will sleep. Yeah, I'm dead. I can't even sit up to blog. I felt so lame, taking this offer haha. Btw, Sophia is 14 months, and seriously America's next top model, she decided to stay up all night also. I'm dying. So even though I didn't even cover what I wanted too, I need to sleep or yes I will pass out, and this post will never be posted..