Alliepoo.

Allie loves her cherry dress oh so much!

Yes, I know I am so obsessed with my Allieface, but honestly I can't help it.

I leave her in 2 hours to go to Vegas, and I am having the hardest time. Even though my family will be watching her, ughh, I know I am crazy but I will miss her for those 7 days. And let me tell you the feeling is mutual. When Allie saw my suitcases she zoomed off to "depressed mode". I had to take a picture of Allie, tonight before I leave so I can out her as my wallpaper and stair at her 24/7. 

Yes. I skype/facetime with my dog. Laugh all you want.

Hahaha, I felt quite odd/motherly like when I wrote my brother a To-Do list for my puppy. Here is what it consisted off.

-Wake Allie up before 2:00pm.

-Let Allie outside.

-make sure gates are shut.

-Give Allie water.

-Walk Allie around block

-Give Allie treat

-Comb Allie

-Make sure Allie doesn't have any hair in her eyes.

-Give Allie treat

-Put pajamas on Allie

-Put 4 furry blankets on my bed, time for Allie nap.

-1hr later.

-Wake Allie up.

-Give Allie Octi( her octopus toy, if she has him to much she gets tired of him hahah)

-Feed Allie dinner

-Put clothes on Allie

-Make sure you leave night light for her.

-Crack door.

hahahah, That was my amazing list. Yes, I do love it.

Allie, gets cold when she sleeps. She was born this way. Every day sfor the last 3 years, I have been dressing her up in baby clothes. And she is so adorable. She is 80% baby. 20%dog.

I'ma miss you Alliface.

Wish me luck.

I love you.

Happy(late)Birthday Juliepoo!

Okay okay... here is the story

Once upon a time, Julie and I were bff's at the age of 1.We were forced to wear these hott outfits, and celebrate our 1st, birthday together..

We would play in the amazing turtle sand box together like good girls..

Then when we were 2 1/2 we decided we had no musical talent. So we banged the piano, to make everyone crazy.

Then when we were 4 we went on our first vacation TOGETHER. We went to Florida.

Hahah, When we were 6, our parents forced us to play basketball. (We figured out we also had to athletic talent, mind you) So we would hold hands( like the picture above) And run up and down the court holding hands, I'm sure the coaches wanted to kill us.

This picture is when we were about 9. Hahaha. We are so photogenic. I don't have any pictures upoaded on my computer, from when we were 9-13. Don't worry, We were going through our "ugly stage" hahaha.You arn't missing anything.

We were supposed to be looking like elves. haha. We were 14 here...

We are 15 here. We had our first "high school" class together. We would always pretend we didn't know each other the first day of school, because if the teacher knew she wouldn't sit us by each other. Out last names our K and M so we always ended up right next to each other. We thought we were so clever LOL. I'm sure the teacher was happy we turned into such amazing friends the 2nd day of class.

This was my 16th birthday party. So this is our last picture together, before I moved.

So 6 months later, Julie comes to Utah. We had thousands of these signs. Even though 6 months is a while, it seemed at the time like 5 years. 

This is our first picture after the "move".. it was a magical moment, to say the least.

hahah This picture cracks me up, if you know me, you know I don't know what to do in snow. Missouri doesn't get snow. So When Julie came out here for Christmas, we decided we would discover snow together for the 1st time. We went sledding down this huge hill(So we thought) with helmets on, we looked like the biggest joke. 

Our last picture together, before she flew back to Missouri. We were balling our eyes out. It was awful.

6 months later, Julie comes back to Utah. This was like at 4am. On the way home from the airport.

This is either mine or Julie's 17th birthday...

We went on a cruise together before she left..These men were the average height of every one in that country. We looked like tall beasts for once!

Once again, saying good bye is the worst. So another day of balling our eyes out.

Well hello 6 months later. So 6 months later, I flew back to Missouri. This was our first picture again:)

This was us at Christmas!

Us on New years!

Here is our little bestie picture.

So every picture, we have to beg each other for serious smiles.Hahah, obviously Julie didn't want to smile. The next few pics are just pics I love of her.

hahah, Oh Julie.

Now this is the best picture. For Christmas, Julie wanted to know what I wanted. And the only thing I wanted was Julie to put her head in the toilet (inside joke, when we were little) So my other cousin. Julie's sister, shoved her head in the toilet. I never in a million years thought I would see this gross sight. Hahahhaha.

Sadly again, this was our last picture, before I flew back to Utah. This was the hardest good bye.

It has been 7 months..

Sadly. It will be at least a year before we see each other again. Due, to school and work. Hopefully we can see each other in December. I miss you Julie.

I really meant to post this yesterday.(The day of her birthday).. But if you read my last post, I am about dead. Julie, is my best friend/ cousin. Everyone who knows me, knows Julie. Even if they have never met her. I talk about her all the time. Any situation that "we have a memory of together" I always just die laughing. So I was reading another girls' blog, and whenever someone close to her, had a birthday she would make a post for it. Good idea eh, I thought so!

Julie is hands down, the funniest girl I know. I can't tell you how many times I about had a heart attach trying to keep in my laugh. This is the first time we both have missed each others birthdays. It really breaks my heart. Another sign of us getting older.. No matter what though, I know we will always be close. Julie is 1 month younger then me, so we have had 18 years of constant bonding, so I cant even imagine any one replacing the "bff" position. She has taught me to be myself. I have never met someone who can walk around and just tell people how it is. (This is the reason, she has almost gotton shot by gangs mind you haha) She is the only person that gets me. I do believe, best friends have a "different language" I guess you can say. We have done everything from, learning to put fake lashes on, buying extensions together, going on cruises, taken 3 month long trips, bribing a police man to drive his car, singing karaoke in men voices, rescuing each other from parties and thousands of more. Back when I lived in Missouri, Julie lived with me for 7 years. She became like my sister. I have never been so close to some one. When we moved out here she stayed back in Missouri. I felt like half of me, was gone. It was so hard for me opening up, and making friends. Knowing, no one can take her place. Between barking at strangers, making the ugliest dance video's and sending them to people, running around with a towel over her head up and down the street, eating grasshoppers, or whatever she decides to do, she always makes me laugh. We have always had the craziest hours. We will stay up until 6am, then sleep all day. Matter of fact she is up right now hahah. We have had 5 high school classes together, and they were the best. Happy Birthday Best Friend, I love you more then words can say.

Pack rat.

It seems like so much has been going on. I love vacations. But I hate the "prep-week" before them. I wonder if other people, have this week. Well, I have been slowly putting it off. Day by day. Tonight it hit me, "Ashley! You are leaving in 2 days!" Ahh. So as I rushed home to think about what I am going to wear, (what to wear is never a big deal for me. Except when I go on vacations, it's weird I know) So I strategically planned all my outfits out, different colors for different days, you get it. Well. I am the worst packer ever. I pack so much. Because even though I know Vegas will be 110 degrees (ohh my gosh do you realize how hott that is??) I don't know if I will be at a restaurant and get cold, so I pack pants, and jackets. It gets me into tons of trouble because, I never can find anything. Or I leave half of my items in the hotel. Also, I feel like I need to stalk up on make up before I go. I think, what if my foundation falls on the floor and shatters, then I will have no foundation. Gross. Or if my eyeliner breaks? No no way. Sooo I end up buying products, I never ever hardly use just for the satisfaction that I will be prepared.

I can't even begin to type how awful it was to pack everything up to move out here. It was one of the worst situations. And I hope it doesn't scar me for the rest of my life. Seriously. haha.

I have been staring at my suitcase, wondering if I should pack it up tonight, and be super good. Or should I wait until an hour before I leave. Sadly, the hour before I leave case, has got the best of me!

check that.

Oh how I wish this was my "To-do list" for tomorrow. Tomorrow, is so hectic. When I stress over things to do, I just can't sleep. Which is awful since, I will be now having an exhausted busy day. It's 4:00 am now, and I have to be up at 8:00. Shoooot me. Ever since nannying, I act like a little mommy and make tons of to do lists. I feel so dumb, when I write out my check list haha. But I do admit it helps me so much. I hate being organized. I find the weirdest thrill when searching through my purse looking for my license. Or searching the house looking for a shoe. Some times I wonder whats wrong with me, when I receive so much pleasure finding my missing item.

So here is my agenda for tomorrow. 

alarm: 7:00.

snooze: 7:30.

leave the house 8:00

Go to Simply Mac and cancel computer class

Go to Dentist.

Go to Sally's.

Go to Walmart.

Go to Walgreens.

Go to Ogden, to get weber card.

Go to Crossroads.

Nanny for only 2 hours. Thank goodness.

(Somewhere take a nap?)please.

Run 2 miles with Colton.

And all this needs to be done by 6.

ugh. Maybe it's not that much, but it sure seems like it.

In 7 days I will be in Vegas. Thank goodness. ( I would also like to go shopping tomorrow for some clothes, and sun glasses). Since my baby's broke.

Adios.

Life's like an hour glass glued to the table.

Sara Evans.

You have kept me going. The song "stronger" is the story of my life. So the last couple of weeks, have been stressful, fun,overwhelming, and I have been tested so many times. As my blogs, show how I am feeling haha, you probably have noticed. My brain thought "Ashley, since it's summer, why don't you do everything, why don't you keep yourself busier then ever" I have had something going on every day. Especially every night.  I have never been to so many get togethers, so many party's etc. Every night I am out with friends, every morning I am sleeping in, so I ca stay up all night having the time of my life. It is an endless cycle. Today I made an effort just to stay at home. Just to relax and take care of the important things. Instead of running out and buying a cute shirt for a party? You see what I am saying. It's really hard for me. I love going out. I love having fun. I love my friends. I guess most people experience this life style when they are grounded. Fortunately for me I have never been grounded, or made to stay at home. So now I am "grounding myself" Colton says haha. I have been so productive today. I went to Crossroads, and did 12 miles. 12! Yesssss. success. Have I mentioned in 8 whole days I will be in Vegas. I am in love with Vegas. Call it dirty and trampy all you want, but I love that place with my whole heart. So I went and bought my "cosmetics" for the trip. Hahah That is first time I have ever said cosmetics.BTW. Then I went to get Allie face a new leash, she bit through her old one haha.

That was an experience in itself. Allie gets super car sick. She hates driving around with out the windows down, I swear she is human. Allie, doesn't have a lot of common since though, so she would just jump out of the window, if I let her. So I have to put a leash on my poor puppy, and make sure she doesn't decide to jump out of the window. (extremely scary drive let me tell you). Of coarse my baby had to be dressed up, because you just don't go nakey in public right? So she was wearing her Silver sequined outfit. And ribbons in her ears. She looked precious. She even got her picture taken 4 times, she got a future let me tell you...

I forgot to take a picture of her, and man I wish I did. But she may have even looked cuter then this picture. Notice how she is so posing. I love my Allie girl more then anything..:)

Whats new? I just went off subject again. I could be the best rambler. Then, I went tanning in my pool, called a million people back (I am so bad aat calling people back), I cleaned my room a tad, took all 3 dogs on a walk, annnnd now I am planning on painting the nails, and doing the brows haha. I feel like today I have no social life, and I am completely needing it. 

As I sit on my porch swing, while my phone is buzzing. I think about how chaotic life is. 

I don't think you realize how much you have going on until you make a counties effort to live a day doing nothing.

bye bye vegies.

I loved today. 

I loved everything about it. 

Today was my SPLURGE DAY.

This means I stop my vegetables, I stop my water. I stop my healthy foods. And I eat. I am so proud of telling you my fatty foods. Okay listen up. So recently I have tried the Mcdonalds smoothies. (on my splurge days) they are fantastic. They are just so good. The strawberry banana and pineapple mango are to die for. So I highly recommend it! hahah. Okay so all my friends love to go to fast food places, I used to go with them all the time also, but ever since my diet I just go and sit. It't not a whole bucket of fun. So when I go and get asked,"Ash why arn't you getting anything?" My answer has been.. I'm dieting untill my splurge day July 16. Hahaha I guess my friends also have an amazing memory. I have gotton smoothie after smoothie. Hahah. I just have the most amazing people in my life. So after an afternoon of swimming. I went to the Lagoon shows with my mom. My mommy is so amazing. Everytime, I am with her I have such an amazing time. She deserves so much. After I went to hang out with Colton,Blake, Jeremy, and Landon.  I never understood how much I love those guys. It seems like everytime I am with them I pee my pants laughing. Other then the fact, they hack my facebook, send embarassing messages to strangers, and lock me in the car every other day I would do anything for them. I now officially know how to upload pictures. So here are just a few pictures from these last couple weeks that I love. I'll even be a doll and explain why I love these pics.

Well. I don't know why this picture is backwards. But this is spiderman pop rocks.Yeah you heard me.

I love love love spiderman. And I love pop rocks. And I love Blake, it was an amazing gift. Yes you can bet I have the package still.

LOOK. Doesn't this picture make your heart die of happy blood? I hope so. I love glitter. I love sequins. I got my Silver sequined UGGS for Halloween last year, so those were my winter glitter boots. I have plenty of glitter flip flops. But I finally came across silver glitter flats, and oh em gee I fell in love.

hahah, I love this because we are so cool. We drive to Centerville to look at the waterfall. I mean what else do you do on Thursday nights at 1am? This.

Hahah. I love how Utah is crazy. We went up to the mountains in July and there was so much snow. Here is this big snow blob I discovered. cool huh? Yay utah.

I go to Lagoon to ride baby rides? Darn right I do. I hope I never grow out of this stage. I found a 2 foot goose to ride, and I loved it. I also made goose sounds the whole time. Be jealous.

I love everything about my brother. I love how he hates his picture getting taken.

I love fireworks. I love the 4th. I celebrated this holiday for like a week straight. 

Welp there you have some pictures of the 1st week of July. 

waiting it out.

Some days I wish I could be 3 again. I wish I could walk around with a smile all the time. I wish I didn't have to worry about things. I wish I could only worry about, the simple things in life. I wish I was happy 24/7 like I used to be. Those 3 year olds don't know how well they have it. There seems to be a dark stormy cloud above my head these last couple days, and I wish I could say that the cloud will pass by tomorrow. Who knows. Every hour seems like a new delima comes up. I'm sick of being blamed. I'm sick of ignorant people. They say if you fake smile when you have a bad day, then the fake smile will turn real? Heck with that. That did not work out. At all. I wish I could of smiled today and meant it. But it didn't work. Today has been terribly hard for me. Just the fact of knowing what today is. Everything has changed with in the last year. I have lost so many people. The people I used to be the closest too have vanished. Some of my closest friends, have made stupid decisions, causing us to go seperate ways. It simply breaks my heart. I know that trials make me stronger, I have seen myself become so much stronger by enduring trials that face me but when does it stop? I guess I am not as strong as I thought and wanted to me. I have to keep reminding myself that every thing happens for a reason... As of today I was a walking emotional wreck. My friends don't know, because I don't share things. I keep it in. I fake the smile. And pray it will be real.  I am so glad I only have just like 2 followers, because only 2 people can read my craziness. Any way, here are some cutie patootie pictures of me..:)

I miss being so super close to my cousin Lisa. I miss that a lot.

I miss the way my brother just adored me, and thought I was the coolest.

I miss believing in things..

I miss dancing 5 days a week..

I never realized how much I took for granted.