Humbled.

Lately I haven't been the Happiest Camper of life. I thought I had a lot of "reasons" to be a downer. This last week, I have had the worst mood, so many trials. One after the other. I'm used to trials. I have had them all my life. This week I was unhappy. Unhappy with basically everything.

Ive been sick of people judging me. I usually blow it off, but recently I just thought enough is enough. I live my life the best I can...and here people who walk into my life just judge me? I was sick, of being the nice girl. I was sick of studying. I was sick of being tired. I have been praying a lot lately. Praying, just to be "content"...I know it won't just happen over night. But, I believe it will happen. I love the power of prayer. I love believing, trusting, and having faith.

kinda new subject.

I miss Missouri. More then I tell. Before I moved I was so content with my friends. Sure, they did bad things all the time, but I had a looot of true friends. Yes, I have lots of friends that I love so much now. I have had so many wonderful opportunities to make friends this last year. Sadly, I have not taken advantage of this. Believing, I will never find "true friends" that will make my day like my old friends used to. I have come to a realization that I need to give people a chance.

Speaking about friends. Ive realized how blessed I am to have friends. I made a good friend today...:) He made me feel special and laugh. After a stressful week, I needed that.  I have a feeling this friendship will gain..

Everything has a learning lesson. This week...although it was terribly hard for me. Although I didn't handle myself like I should of, although I hurt some people that were close to me, I am humbled. I am humbled to know that challenges make me stronger. Sometimes, I try not to believe it... But I can't loose faith.

I am humbled.